*No worries, I've left pictures out of this post!* :)
So, it appears (in 6 hours) that we met our second breastfeeding goal of 6 weeks...I honestly did not know if we would make it this far! I know a lot of people have such a hard time with it, and let me first say that in no way am I opposed to formula or do I think anything at all about people who do not or could not breastfeed. Feeding your baby, however you do it, that's all that matters, as my husband told me when I was having a hard time.
That being said, I do think that we have just been blessed to have made it this far (knock on lots of wood). According to the lactation consultant and a nurse I just happen to have really good "tools" for breastfeeding - if you know what I mean. I will say that it made a huge difference for us to see a lactation consultant a few times early on. It also has been extremely helpful that our pediatricians office is very pro-breastfeeding (that's where our lc is). The first 3 weeks were definitely rough - it required all 3 of us (Logan, Peter, and I) for each feeding. Because Logan was a bit of a lazy nurser at first, the lc showed Peter how to massage things (while Logan was nursing - it was a crowded mess!) so that it helped the milk get to him more. He had to do that for about a week, and I literally had bruises. I will never forget Peter trying so hard to stay awake at 3am (and 1am and 5am!) each day - it made such a big difference for us. It is so sweet because even now if he wakes up when Logan does in the middle of the night he'll say "Do you need my help?" which we haven't in about 4 weeks, but it is so nice of him to say. Logan was also a VERY sleepy baby for the first 3 or 4 weeks, so we had to do a TON to keep him awake while nursing, including stripping him down to just his diaper for each feeding (which the grandmas both thought was so crazy!). Luckily we don't have to do that much at all anymore, maybe once every 3 days or so when he is especially sleepy.
We're now getting to that good part where I actually enjoy nursing. The only negatives right now for me are the timing of things, as in if I run out to the store I have to be back in 2 hours or so. I do have about 30 oz. of milk frozen now so Peter could give him that if he really needed to, but that stuff is like gold so I hate to use it unless it's really necessary (like for our date this coming weekend when my parents are going to watch him!). The other issue is that it still is pretty time consuming. It's not unusual for a nursing session to take 35 - 40 minutes still, but then sometimes it's only 20 which was unheard of before. It is still hard for me to not know exactly how much he is getting, to trust that I have plenty of milk, and to trust that he is not hungry. I asked for a baby scale for Christmas. Not so I could become obsessed, but so I can reassure myself when these doctor's appointments start being 2 months apart! Peter is okay with it, which means it's not too obsessively crazy to have one!
So, now our next goal will be to bf until I go back to work Feb. 1. In early January I'm really going to have to look at how much I'm able to pump when I miss a feed to see if I'll be able to keep up with him. If it doesn't look like I'll be able to then we'll have to start trying formula to make sure that we have one that works for him by the time I go back to work. Teaching is definitely not the most convenient job for pumping! If I am able to pump then we'll try to go to 6 months, then start solids and bfing together up to 1 year - but I really don't know how likely that is!
Thanks to everyone who has helped me with bfing this far - I cannot tell you how helpful all your advice has been! Again, I don't want anyone to think this post is in anyway looking down on anyone who didn't or couldn't breastfeed - I know we have been very lucky and pray it will keep working for us!